I had stuffed it in a corner and tried to forget. Pretended it wasn’t important. It didn’t matter. That was then and it was over. Not to be thought of. Nothing to deal with.
Over the previous 2 weeks, I have covered a choice – what I had done or tried to do, that has been haunting me ever since. Occasionally it raises its head, grabs my attention, reminding me before I can stuff it back in its corner.
Two points I want to make about this.
1. Over the years, it has taken a lot of energy and yet still breaks free to remind. Think of it like a Beach Ball you’re holding under water to keep it out of sight. Just concealing it, forcing it beneath water, requires focus, energy while it diverts attention from whatever I’m engaged in currently. The Bottom Line – When I needed my “A Game” to make the best of this moment – I didn’t have it. It was scattered over events playing in my mind.
2. I couldn’t help but think of it, whenever I’d read or hear of someone taking their life. I’d think “If only they’d known it would get better.” How fortunate I am to still be here and experience all that’s happened. As with nature, Spring always comes. It always follows – even the bleakest winters!
This video from Cars 3 shows how choices, moments of questioning or doubting ourselves can haunt us, prevent us from the life we dream of. That life wants us, calls to us. It waits for us to claim it through making new choices.
Build your choices by unconditionally acknowledging, accepting, and loving ourselves like there’s no tomorrow!
Until next time,
Joe